got what i wanted,
out of it.
some days and nights,
i wanted to talk to him.
i needed to talk to someone apart from family and close friends.
but then I remembered,
when we were together,
really can’t talk to him,
angry, hurtful and senseless words comes out of his mouth,
can not really rely on him,
so I avoided him altogether.
wondered, was I always the only one hurting from the beginning until now?
don’t trust him,
he was full of lies and pretensions,
insincerity.
guess, that’s what i always get from being consumed of hoping for that someone.
only with him i felt abused and used emotionally and psychologically.
he was best at turning tables too.
infuriating.
if only they knew.
how wonderful it is to look at friends married with children
while I remain ALONE and HOPELESS.
perhaps in my world true love will never exist.
how lonely. very lonely.
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