i remembered i was slowly dying inside.
i was sitting that day full of sadness
my eyes swell with tears
but i did not cry.
i was in front of the conputer monitors
when i received a text from my mother asking me if i’m okay
i lied.
before i drowned, I reached out to you,
i was ignored.
i promised myself ,
i won’t let you do it to me anymore,
no more tears.
soon anger filled me, revved me up.
it was hopeless. we were hopeless.
and once again,
in my empty bed in the dark night,
i feel empty like i used to be before you.